Hopeless Rejection from a Job: The Painful Reality

Today I woke up with extreme suspense about the result of my previous interview! I personally thought the interview went well and the salary was excellent. I was full of hope and excitement. I thought about how I will prove everyone wrong and how I will find a great job. I imagined what I would do with my salary; how I would help my family with their expenses and the things I would buy myself. But then I received an email saying that they would not move forward with my application. I felt heartbroken and hopeless. I started to cry and felt despair. How will I be able to afford my university fees and my own expenses I asked myself. In reality, the job was too good to be true! Guys like me never get things that good and deep down I think I knew it all along. As always it was hope that caused me pain! The fact that I hoped once again in life could never get unpunished.

Now everything feels a little bit too gloomy and my chest a bit too heavy. I am sitting alone in my room looking desperately at a life that could have happened and a future that is no longer a possibility. I am degraded to reality and it is not pleasant!

How can I pick up the phone and tell my family that the fee for this term of my university has gone up exponentially? and I have to pay a month of my rent in advance knowing that I do not have much money left in my bank account? I needed a miracle and that job was one and it was a promising one but it did not happen. It seems whatever I try to do nowadays is bound to fail and I don’t know what the maximum capacity of a person that can handle all these failures and rejections is.

I wish I could have a logical conversation with my father and tell him that it is enough and things are not going to get better for me in this country and I need to stop everything and move back. I tried and God knows I tried to make this work but it was beyond my power so I simply could not. It is not the end of the world, an insignificant boy failed in his dreams. I will add this failure to the abundance of the previous ones and move on with my life.